Quarantine has really been messing with my anxiety and causing more physical symptoms than I normally experience. The first few weeks were rough, my focus was terrible and the future appeared so bleak to me. I felt as if everything was going downhill. I noticed that I was tired and needed naps more; the hours of the days were running together and slipping away so fast. Once those first few weeks were over, I began to feel better, feel more optimistic. I had developed an indoor life that had more normality and rhythm to it. I had been furloughed from my job and felt motivated to focus on my businesses. However, my anxiety prevailed, and so my jaw became tight, teeth hurt from grinding, developed neck pains and headaches, and a lack of appetite. Even when I thought I was better, my body has been telling me otherwise.
A few years ago it came out that RoundUp (a pesticide) and the chemicals in it were harmful enough to cause cancer in farmers and others who used it. The harm doesn’t stop there though, as traces of the product can be found in the grains it is used on, including oatmeal. My mom was alarmed by this and cut off all oatmeal making and oat products from being brought in the house in no time. It was a great decision, except now, we had to rethink breakfast entirely, because, literally, every morning was either oatmeal as a hot cereal or oatmeal in homemade granola.
I haven't been sick with a cold or have had intense cold symptoms in years (knock on wood). I literally remember the last time I was sick. It was my second year of college. My colds always began with a sore throat, and that one started bothering me at night as I was trying to sleep. My nose was also blocked, causing my throat to be dry, worsening the pain. I wen't to school that morning, but ended up coming right back because the instructor suggested that I take a day. Back home the intense throat pain made me feel as if I were going to vomit.
Though I wasn't sick as often as some people are back then, catching a cold when I did was very frustrating for me. I couldn't imagine what it's like having the flu, which I've never had.
I don't know what happened. I was making stir-fried tofu on my messy stovetop (because I still needed to clean my kitchen), and I randomly began singing Marvin Gaye. I ran through a few songs off of the What's Going On album, one that my mom played a lot when my siblings and I were younger, and was suddenly filled with emotion. The album spoke about so many things that felt so relevant today such as environmental destruction, sickness, war, hatred, the power of spirituality, etc. I grabbed my phone and pulled up the album, and played the songs back to myself. I cried...Hard.
I hop out of bed every morning for work at 6:15 am. If I'm feeling peppy enough, and not groggily dragging my feet, I will put cute orange tea kettle on the stove and prepare a cup of tea. Tea time is a real thing for me. Something just feels right about starting your morning that way.
Looking Through Vegan Colored Glasses is a vegan lifestyle blog curated by a Black mom and four of her vegan raised kids, covering their opinions on health, food, and fashion.